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Some faces are still so familiar
Some eyes are still so mesmerizing
That can peek through your heart
That can look beyond what is dissimilar
Some smiles are still so much incandescent
Some frowns are still so sweet
That can make you cry and laugh
Some fights are still so deliberately irrelevant
Some days are still so full of nothing
Some flowers are still so fresh
That they never fail to be fragrant
That they never fail to lose their colour
Some gestures are still so beyond everything
Some stories are still so alive and overwhelming
Of him , of her, of them,
Of the innumerous people in the crowd
Some spirits are so always unyielding

Anonymous

If you are in me,
And still I can't feel you,
I shall let you go.
If you are holding my hand ,
And still the piercing cold scratches me,
I shall let you go.
If you are with me,
And still your search is not over,
I shall let you go.
If you hold the light,
And still I can't find you,
I shall let you go.
If the hours with you have to be filled in,
And do not glide on,
I shall let you go.
If I yearn for you,
And still am incomplete,
I shall let you go.
Even if I know,
I will be broken without you,
I will let you go.

I and Me

I lie beneath me
I sleep under me
My burden is so huge,
I can hardly breathe,I can barely see
I can't remember when last was I with me?
Or am I trapped in my own subterfuge?
I was never outside the realm of me.
World is like a multicolored show to me
With my inflating ego to satisfy
I have forgotten to care for the me
Overwhelmed by my layers,I succumb to me
Is there a truth that I defy?
Someday I hope to elope with me
Someday I will set myself free
And then I will never turn back again
To you, to them or to me
I will be at peace with me
In the lightened solitary lane

Wake up!!

Wake up from eternal sleep,wake up before drowning,
Wake up to see the world so mesmerizing.
Search yourself in the air around,
Search yourself in the green ground.
Look into your mails ,twitter and  facebook ,
Listen to a story, read a book,
Wake up to reply to watsapp messages
Wake up after silence of ages.
Stand up to your courage and belief,
Reach to your dreams , forget grief.
Listen to a song, dance to the rhythm,
Sweat to complete the run with them.
Wining might not be an option,
Have faith in your own opinion.
Light up the room,burn out the candles,
Enough you slept, no more mishandle,
Brighten your day, let the air flow in,
No more failures in driving test again.
Steer your way,take the lead,
Its time to get back to work, to succeed.
Walk up to those who love you,
Drink a beer or two,and let it go,
Smile a ton, and travel back,
Unleash life , unfurl,unpack...

The Unsaid Lie

Say it for once,
Say it for the last time,
Say it till her patience lasts,
It's good to lie sometime

Your eyes betrayed your words,
Your lips shattered your truth,
She still awaits to hear it from you,
Bring her some peace, make her soothe

You had your moments,
You still, will have those,
Let her listen to the lie for once,
Get her ready to lose

Say it for the first time,
And yes, for the last time, ever,
For the sake of her silence,
For the sake of  time forever..

How I wonder..

When I see the long path in front of me,
The same path trodden again and again,
How different does it feel to me!
Now that I will never walk on it again

When I see those small thatched houses,
And the big moon rising above them
How wary I used to be of peeping glances,
The windows and dim lights within them!

When I feel the earthy fragrance around me
The fragrance I got so used to,
How far I have traveled from that overwhelming spree!
And still there's a destination I need to reach to!

When I feel the piercing cold,
In my arms, feet and  inner self,
What else remains to unfold?
Now that I have raged a war with myself

When I see the colors ahead of me,
And then the moistened grass, black and green,
How much do I urge to search for peace , may be,
May be go back in a time machine?

When I see in the future,bright and colorful,
Why does it appear so confusing...
When I lean back and look the past , so deceitful,
Perhaps known evils are still so falsely reassuring!

Yet I keep on walking down the new lane,
Its brightness blurring my eyes,
Trying to keep steady and sane,
Before arrival of the final goodbyes

Midnight Travelouge

Is it a fall?
No it's a journey.
But isn't it downhill?
Yes.It is...it's a long walk and it allows to come back and meet again..where you left.
But still.It's a fall.Won't you say it?
No.You can come back and this time uphill.
But uphill is difficult?What if you can never come back?
Well..there's always a place in between..in the woods..where the road turned away to  denser greens
Do you have a company?
Yes..I have..at different times.
Do you seek someone?
No.I seek something.
And did you ever come across it?
Yes. Quite a few times..it's just that it never allows itself to hold..it flows away..you know..just like that river that flows by the hillside.
And you still seek it again?
Yes.My work is to search..until I get tired..till I am there.
Till you are there?
You see..I may be ..I may not be..sometimes things are not meant to be like what you would believe,or at the least want to believe.
Isn't it confusing?
No...It's surprising!
And what's that you see far down the hill?
That's  life..
And what's here..uphill ..where you start?
That's also another life..
And what are you ..and the others?
Well..we all are just mediums of transfer.
For The Thing you seek?
Yes.It is and it never ends here.

Like waves..

It's not about big things you could have done

Or petty things that you do,

It's not about the achievements- there might be none

Neither about the failures - some of them you might not even know!

Day in and day out you might find yourself,

Trapped in sarcasms, betrayals, loss,

And yet, continually rediscover yourself,

Like those relentless ocean waves...

There are people you wanted to be with,

And people whom you never urged for,

And yet you find yourself in a cozy realm to be with

It is because, it's you, whose identity makes it worth for.

You are free to fall and arise again,

And follow your own path – the one which still lies afresh,

And the one that has been trodden, again and again,

The more you like it, pain of fall is less

The satisfaction of being oneself

It's a hard earned treasure,

No repents, no compromises and nothing that haunts yourself,

Freedom, they say, is a gifted measure

It Rains in December

I am back home,this time,this year,
Thoughtful and taken aback,
Because it's raining in December,
Someone welcoming my coming back?

The earthy fragrance spreads in me,
I wish it goes on and on,
If gusty winds follow,let it be,
I will still be there,till they are gone.

I wish for the warm jacket,
Or someone within it?
I wish to dance, to laugh at,
With new passions in my heart lit.

Oh rain! It comes again and again,
Elated with its unexpected arrival,
I drench myself in the solitary lane,
This time,this year,I welcome myself to the joy carnival.

Random

Every day I wake up to to see a green pasture
Every day I wake up and while the alarm keeps ringing
I wish for the day to begin a little more late
First I consider to set it again
Then comes a desire to quit my job
Just to see the green pasture...

Every day while I travel to my office
The speed breakers talk to me
Slow down, think a bit, they say
Every day I forget their voices...
And I keep on waiting...
For the endless ocean, for the sky touching mountains

When I reach my office
And start my work
I realize that nothing can suffice
How I want to leave all this and be a wanderer
The day passes by
Some work some leisure,
Some learning, some knowledge
Still the desire persists
Sometimes overwhelmed with joy
Sometimes depressed with ardour
By the time I come back home
I fail to witness the dusk
Moon shines over my car’s bonnet
My heart beats so hard
Break free break free it says
Sail through sail through it shouts
Still I bring myself back
Still I eat my dinner
Still I get a full night’s sleep
Because I have to rush
I can’t waste time
Because today was just another day

Little contrast

Are you still there?
With your innocent smile and little silly things?
I could see you no more in front of me,
Sometimes singing,dancing, sleeping..


Yesterday I know you were here
And yet I didn't realize your presence
Now a days I feel no mirth
When I see you loitering around

And does it actually matter to you
That your presence no more is visible to me?
I cannot hear your laughter,
Your cold vibes do not reach me any more


Was all that innocence just a matter of time?
I don't have words to ask you questions,
To let you know how much I care for you,
Some things may be ,are just destined to be silent between us.

By My Side...

When in the odds of all times, we walked through
I thought you know me the best..
And in the greens and yellows we sailed through
Don’t you think so my dearest?

In all those hours of solitude, you gave me a hand
And I could feel how special I am from the rest,
You made me feel home in this unknown land,
Don’t you think so my dearest?

I could shade tears, I could laugh aloud,
Thinking you would be standing next,
In my smiles,vagaries & failures,still by my side you stood,
Don’t you think so my dearest?

And then when there came a chilling blow,
When the storm was rising high, amidst
All unknown faces I needed you,
Were you there my dearest?

To you

When in the darkness of night
I wake up suddenly,terrified,
Hopeless,blank,without any light,
I think of you, I miss you.

When on my bed I lie,
All alone,numb and still,
I can feel you, sitting by
My side, sweet and caring.

When I feel like breaking into pieces,
When I am mocked by everyone,
You come to me and take away all my pains,
And I sleep peacefully.

When amidst oceans of deep unrest
I am at the verge of sinking,
You lend me your hand, lest,
I would have been lost forever.

When I seek someone very own,
In between thousands of unknown faces,
Your image emerges, you are my very own,
And I feel pacified.

I am a part of you,
I am in you, always,
You make me exist,I hope I was with you,
Always and forever............


(This poem is dediacted to my dearest mom and dad)

What if....

What if the last drop in the ocean dries,
And the thrist of hope is carried forever,
What if I get lost in the unknown sighs,
And then comeback never?

What if the sunlight never reaches the ground,
And forgets its path somewhere on the way,
What if I say I never wanted to be there,
And then forget everything that comes on my way?

What if the rainbow never shows up again,
And all the colours are forgotten,
What if I never go to search them?
All colours become faded and rotten.


What if all the goodness glances vanish
And there are no friendly smiles?
I too draw an end to it,
And hatred pervades everywhere, for miles and miles..

What if I say that I want to break into pieces,
And shatter all in vicinity?
What if I diminish to a point,
And travel towards infinity?

What if I free myself from all false ties,
And travel the blessed path forever,
Will you still remember me , my dearest,
If I am not there?

Silence Says...

I can sing a song for you
A song that brings you joy shower,
But never will I come to you,
And you shall know me never...

I can tell a story to you,
That will soothe you and remind you of good times,
But never will I need anything from you,
Though I will be a friend for all times....

I can be by your side,always,
In sunshine and cloudy days,forever,
But always will be parted in our ways,
And you will know the reason never....

I can love you, be with you, be a friend of yours,
And make your life the best,
But I can never be yours,
Till I lie silent, at eternal rest.....

Illusion

Do you know the little fairy
Who lives near the old castle,
And spends swiftly her hours,
Tingling,singing and talking to flowers?

Do you know the little fairy
Who peeps from behind the clouds,
And the reddish tinge on her cheeks
Brightens from behind the silver lining as she peeps?

Do you know the little fairy,
Who plays with the stars and the moon,
In the magical hours of dawn and dusk,
And who flies up above with the skylark

Do you know the little fairy
Who laughs for no reason
And who is always so humane,
Who dances with the first shower of rain?

Do you know the little fairy
Who fulfils everyones's wishes,
And consoles the forsaken child who cries,
With her feathery touch and bright big eyes?

Do you know the little fairy,
Who speaks with unspoken words,
And showers the joy of first love,
And then sits at peace like a dove?

Do you know the little fairy,
Whose round big eyes say everything?
With her love and care she nurtures everyone,
She lives everywhere and within everyone.

A Maiden's Little Desire

She is my dream, though a distant vision,
A token of love,who knows where is she?
My soul, my passion,
Yet so far away from me

She wonders in the secrets of my heart
A desire veiled from everyone,
Her smile makes me laugh,her wounds make me hurt
Oh!She is my very little imagination

Her small paddy feet dance in rhythm,
Her innocent face blushes in the mystic moonlight,
And her bright big eyes,they twinkle
My little hope is untouched from every false delight.

Though a fancy, yet very often,
Her thought veils all my feelings,
And my bitter parts soften,
And my life drenches with the offerings.

And I forget every gloom and pain,
She leads me too a brighter world and shows a new way,
Full of smiles and hope, though all in vain,
As she is still so far away....

Love for You

Let me lift my soul and my heart far away from thee
Where the songs of spring are not sung
And no one with hope and love comes to me
Friend , I have forgotten thee.

My bones ache, my voice trembles, my heart pains
All my senses have become dead
I have waited for you many a days
Friend, now I have freed thee

For ages I have confined myself in darkness
And subdued my passions for you
I have veiled myself and lost my face
Friend, I have forgiven thee

You have won everything you urged for
For me its only some reminents
And now there is nothing to adore
But friend , I have loved thee



(Written on 30.10.2000)

Lost

I searched for myself amidst the grey and white clouds,
Ladden with the burden of moisture
And floating in the highest of sky tower
But I could find myself no where, no where

I searched for myself in nature's green
In the bud, in the leaves, and the dreamy flower,
And all that is unknown, undeciphered, unseen,
But I could find myself no where, no where

I searched for myself amongst the lifeless concrete
In each selfish cage, in each suffocating bower
And looked for myself in the darkened shadows
But I could find myself no where, no where


I searched for myself in the songs of the wanderer
Hoping to be retrived by someone, somewhere
In life's song, in the rainbow of its experiences
But I could find myself no where, no where

I searched for myself in the deepest ocean
Where all hide their gloom,secrets and desire
Cant I see myself in him, I asked?
But I could find myself no where, no where

An Incomplete Ode

Every time you say how alone you are,
Haven’t you seen me walking by your side?
Every time you see the cloud up there
Don’t you see the glow of golden beside?

You say there is no one
I say it’s only you,
The stars are many and only a sun,
Is there really nothing to do?

In the moonlit night
When we walk down that lane..
Can’t you not see our lives ahead, a bright light—
Can’t you not see our lives together wane?

In the shadows of darkness
When there is no light to lead the path
I can hold your hand and close my eyes
And be with you till the eternal path

Can’t you read those unsaid words?
Or may be you are too close and still so far away,
May be I will be lost and never be back again
May be ....................


(Written on 28th June, 2009 at 1.30 am)